Well well well, look at what we have here. I decided to actually check my blog out when I clicked my link to see if it was still active and that they hadn't disabled it from long term non-use. (is that even a word?) Anyway, lo and behold the link still works! And as I scrolled through and read some of my older posts, I had to laugh. The things I wrote about as I tried to be a "mature" young adult seem so trivial compared to the things that have been going on more recently. Yet some of the problems I faced before still plague me to this day, mainly my relationship with my now estranged mother. It seems that through my earlier posts, I can see the change in my behaviors (although minimal) and the growth in my character, to the person I am today. I am nowhere near being a grown adult, but have come quite a way from the emerging young adult I was when I started blogging. Or at least that's how I'd like to look at it.
Here's a quick run down on how I am now:
I'm now 24, will be 25 in October (such a big age difference!)
I no longer live at home with my mom, but I do not live on my own. I reside with Mr. Man, and have been for about a year or so.
I also no longer speak to my mother, as she has verifiably (is that also a word?) disowned me for reasons that will be spoken about at a later date. (possibly)
I am now up to a total of 9 tattoos and am on a hiatus, although I have felt the itch to get another one, I have no actual desire - nor do I have a design in mind.
I did finally graduate and receive my BA, however I still have no career, and am still muddling my way through life, but with great plans for the future.
I am slowly weaning myself off of FB and am determined to delete my twitter very soon, and eventually become less social network addicted (as most are in my generation).
I have a lot to do to get my life together! But it is very necessary, and I will overcome the seemingly many obstacles there are.
Updates soon I suppose.. Don't hold your breath. (I'm sure you weren't)
Sunday, March 4, 2012
Wednesday, December 16, 2009
Social Networking Gone Awry
So I went ahead and deleted people from my FB and pissed off a few people, but oh well. That wasn't my point or goal, but it's my page, I'm entitled to monitor it however I want, even if it includes getting rid of people who have nothing nice, relevant or important to say. If you are constantly saying things about how my statuses are inappropriate, then don't read them. I made the choice to delete some of these people from my friends list. Especially a few people that I haven't spoken to or seen in a few years. Like honestly I'm not going to take into consideration people's feelings if they don't care about mine. One person text me about it, but seriously I've not spoken to or seen you in more than a year. You are not my friend anymore when you come back to NYC and don't call me to chill, claim you have no time, but then on your FB it says otherwise, don't return my calls or texts or don't make an effort. That's done I'm not wasting my time, so don't make a big deal over nothing, it's a social networking site. Get over it. You want to know what's going on with me, pick up the phone. Like it's crazy how people get so offended. People have deleted me before and I don't care. I usually don't notice most of the time, but when I do, it's like ok, they must have a reason, keep it moving.
Anyway point is I'm being straight up about things. It is exactly that - don't like what I say, delete me. Because if I don't like what you have to say, I sure as hell am deleting you. I will not censor myself for people and make no apologies for anything I do.
- L
Anyway point is I'm being straight up about things. It is exactly that - don't like what I say, delete me. Because if I don't like what you have to say, I sure as hell am deleting you. I will not censor myself for people and make no apologies for anything I do.
- L
Sunday, November 22, 2009
Significance
There is a significance and a meaning behind my tattoos. I'm just putting that out there. Now I do not seek or need people's approval, but certain people look at me like I'm crazy for the things I do and are quick to pass judgment on me. But they don't know me or the reasons I do things. I'm not totally crazy, there is a method to my madness. There are only a few people out there that take the time to figure me out.
So I have 6 tattoos, yes 6. They are not all in extremely visible places and most often than not, people hardly ever know I even have tattoos. I just recently got my 6th one this Friday. Tattoos are my thing. I'm more into them than piercings. It's how I express myself and who I am without being too extreme. None of the ones I have are ridiculously large or over the top. I'm going to break them down here now.
1 - my first tattoo was on my lower back [tramp stamp, I know] and it's of a strawberry on a vine in color. I was 15 when I got it, my mom took me. I like strawberries, and still do to this day. IDK why, but I've always been into them. Got strawberries on everything from my socks and undies to pens, paper and ceramics. It's cute, maybe not my finest tattoo ever, but I like it. Growing a little tired of it now, only because of all the tramp stamp references, and because I want to re-do it and make it pop more, have some more pizazz..
2 - I got this for my 19th birthday, my mom also took me to get this one. It's my zodiac sign on my left shoulder in black and shaded gray. It's simple and represents a part of me, I believe that for the most part, I have the qualities of my sign.
3 - The first one I got on my own for my 21st birthday. Chinese symbols for faith and hope in black. It's a part of my heritage, and because you should always have faith in something, and hope for the best, hope for a better tomorrow. They go hand in hand. Having faith helps you hope for something.
4 - Between my shoulders at the base of my neck, the infinity symbol with the words "today tomorrow forever" in it. Outline is in black, shaded in gray with the words in black. let's not go there with the original meaning, but let's just say for now that I will never forget the past. Without it, I would not be here, I would not be who I am today. So my past is an important part of me and will always be remembered, to help me strive for a better future and not to repeat my mistakes.
5 - On the back of my neck, the Hindu Ohm symbol in all black. Because I like what it stands for spiritually, relates to another part of my heritage and looks amazing.
6 - The word Believe on the inside of my left wrist in all black. I like this one very much. It has the most significance and it's my favorite tattoo and relates to #3. You always have to believe in something. If you don't believe in change, hope for a better tomorrow and have faith that it will come, then you won't go anywhere. You have to believe. There is plenty of power behind that one word.
There may or may not be more to come, but as I get older, I am becoming more conscious and aware of where I put them. I want to keep them in places where time and old age won't disturb them or the meaning.
- L
So I have 6 tattoos, yes 6. They are not all in extremely visible places and most often than not, people hardly ever know I even have tattoos. I just recently got my 6th one this Friday. Tattoos are my thing. I'm more into them than piercings. It's how I express myself and who I am without being too extreme. None of the ones I have are ridiculously large or over the top. I'm going to break them down here now.
1 - my first tattoo was on my lower back [tramp stamp, I know] and it's of a strawberry on a vine in color. I was 15 when I got it, my mom took me. I like strawberries, and still do to this day. IDK why, but I've always been into them. Got strawberries on everything from my socks and undies to pens, paper and ceramics. It's cute, maybe not my finest tattoo ever, but I like it. Growing a little tired of it now, only because of all the tramp stamp references, and because I want to re-do it and make it pop more, have some more pizazz..
2 - I got this for my 19th birthday, my mom also took me to get this one. It's my zodiac sign on my left shoulder in black and shaded gray. It's simple and represents a part of me, I believe that for the most part, I have the qualities of my sign.
3 - The first one I got on my own for my 21st birthday. Chinese symbols for faith and hope in black. It's a part of my heritage, and because you should always have faith in something, and hope for the best, hope for a better tomorrow. They go hand in hand. Having faith helps you hope for something.
4 - Between my shoulders at the base of my neck, the infinity symbol with the words "today tomorrow forever" in it. Outline is in black, shaded in gray with the words in black. let's not go there with the original meaning, but let's just say for now that I will never forget the past. Without it, I would not be here, I would not be who I am today. So my past is an important part of me and will always be remembered, to help me strive for a better future and not to repeat my mistakes.
5 - On the back of my neck, the Hindu Ohm symbol in all black. Because I like what it stands for spiritually, relates to another part of my heritage and looks amazing.
6 - The word Believe on the inside of my left wrist in all black. I like this one very much. It has the most significance and it's my favorite tattoo and relates to #3. You always have to believe in something. If you don't believe in change, hope for a better tomorrow and have faith that it will come, then you won't go anywhere. You have to believe. There is plenty of power behind that one word.
There may or may not be more to come, but as I get older, I am becoming more conscious and aware of where I put them. I want to keep them in places where time and old age won't disturb them or the meaning.
- L
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